It has been a long time. I looked at my last entry and realised how long ago I put anything here. I thought I was ready to put myself out there again, but it seems I wasn't. I don't think I'm ready yet but I couldn't let today go without something, a memory.
Today was my DHs birthday and it is hard not to miss him a lot today. Indeed for the last week or so this day has been much on my mind. What would I feel like and how to get through it. I'm remembering other birthdays and how we celebrated them, although he kept trying to forget them as the years went on we always did something.
Tonight I will have a good stiff scotch going to bed to help me sleep and to send him a birthday toast. So if any of you out there are reading this raise your glasses to your loved ones past and present.